“I’m afraid of change.” It doesn’t seem so complicated when I type it on the screen. It’s four words. Simple. Yet, I find that fear of the unknown scares more people than I can bet on. For as long as I can remember, I, like many others, am a predictable creature of habit.
The simplicity and dependability of my reliable routine makes me feel safe, secure. I like knowing what is coming when I open my eyes for a new day. I like preparing, packing and getting ready for what lies ahead. So I can have a first aid kit for the danger. I once hoped for a dependable life that never changed dramatically. I knew what I wanted and where to go and it was safe. But the problem with safe is that it doesn’t get you to where you never dreamed of. Without change I would never see the things that were out of my reach. Falling into a predictable pattern does promise comfort, but what it doesn’t promise is the thrill of possibilities you never knew existed.
It’s putting your faith into something that is not tangible. You can’t physically grasp what’s coming. You can’t brace yourself to be thrown into the lion’s den. But you don’t have to go into it with your head down. I’ve been thrown into situations I would never have found myself in a year ago. And although I wasn’t ready for the change, now that I am in it, all I can do is look up and out. Out at the new situations I experience and up with faith that things will eventually take there course as they should. Whether it’s not knowing who you’ll end up with or where you’ll be in your career, change isn’t just here, it’s inevitable. I’ve been rebelliously resistant to the word change. But in the midst of creating a new life, I’ve learned to more than accept it. I can embrace it.